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Tuesday, October 26, 2010

the capital DQ


What do you do when you argue with someone knowing that you’re right? :)

No.. let me rephrase..

What do you do when you encountered an argument with someone?

Well, for me whenever I argue with someone, basically someone I love, I’d just make them feel guilty of what they’ve done to me, and I’ll ignore them, letting them know that I’m very angry. ^_^

I’ll share with you one case scenario:-

About few months ago, I was with my family for the weekend in KL. My dad was supposed to drive me back to Kuantan campus Sunday afternoon, but they agreed to stay on in KL up till Monday. And I can’t afford to include myself in the plan coz I have class on Monday morning. So, my dad asked me to take the coach back to Kuantan. I had no problem at all with that. Coz I expected him to send me to the station. But instead, he was like “ I’m sorry sweetheart, the car’s at the workshop and we have a meeting with a friend at 2. Why don’t you take the commuter to the station?”

Actually, its not that I have a problem getting on a commuter to the station or anything, coz I’ve done it (alone-by myself) before. But I don’t know what got into me that day that had me so moody. And I was like:

“Fine! Wait till you see me in tomorrow’s papers in the “missing person” section”. I DID NOT SAY IT OUT LOUD. I just said it to myself. I just thought of it.. didn’t say it..Hihi..

What I did was, kissed my parents hands goodbye and leave without saying anything except

“K, I’m leaving. Pray for me”. With a firm voice, not expecting replies. And just before I leave, I forced a tear to drop from my eye.. And made sure they notice that! *yes, I am a bit of a drama queen”. But boy, didn’t it feel sooo good! :D

K. end of the story.

Most of the time. This has always been in my mind ;

“ wait and see. If I die or anything bad happens to me, you’ll be the first to regret and feel guilty.”

And I’ll ignore them till they come back to me, begging for forgiveness.

Seriously, its not that I’m really angry at them or anything, sometimes I do it just for the fun of it. *okay, I’m also an attention seeker*.

My self-centered-ness had made me neglect the other consequences. What if the other way takes place. Meaning, what if they feel so guilty of what they’ve done till they die to it. Well, maybe not die. But it affects them so badly till it become a big problem in their heads. It’s very selfish of me to play with other people’s feelings when its only to fulfill my self pleasure of making other people feel guilty. I think I need to act a bit more mature. Hmmmm….i think I am mature … I think.. okay.. don’t think.. whatever…

So what the moral of the story? I dunno.. I dun have any… I think I just need to express my guiltiness… coz the same case happened again yesterday…hahha…

my parents asked me to stay back and not come home till the 28th when I really wanted to go back home yesterday… And I was like

”wait till I get married and you wont see me at all if its not for eid”..

haha.. but still, I never said it out loud.. I only thought of it.. but you know..

haha.. sorry for taking your time.. :PP


Lets update some stuff shall we?

Helllllewwwwwwwwwww bloggers!! I miss you,^__^.. tho I know nobody misses meee!!! T_T

I’ve been very busy lately.. SERIOOUSLY..

actually.. not so..

But final exam’s coming!

----- Well, it’s not like I have prepared myself for it or anything..(like how I am suppose to :I.e; studying, memorizing..(oh, I mean “understanding” not memorizing of course ..*rolleyes)..) I have not prepared for anything.. and that’s the reason why I cant blog.

You must be confused a little.. k..Let me explain..

Final exam is near.. and I haven’t really revised my chapters yet… and I don’t intend to; cause I’m used to last minute studying…

Its not that I’m so smart that last minute studying is just enough for me to answer my paper or anything; its just that it works better dat way.. k, I think I don’t really need to explain this in details…

anyway… although I wasn’t studying for my exam and doing absolutely nothing, I still cant make myself blog…


Because I feel guilty!

Ameera thinks: “Why cant I spend the time finishing my FYP reports instead of updating my blog?”

Although both uses Microsoft Word as the means of ‘expressing thoughts (or REPORTS)’; but doing something you are forced to is really not that easy. The bond between you and the thing you’re forced to do is not strong enough to make you relate yourself to it. Thus, you tend to use the KISS rule to finish your report. In other words, you write nonsense. And get a C+ for it. Keeping It Short & Simple really paid out. *hff

So, to overcome my problem… instead of doing the reports or blogging…

I watched the whole SEASON ONE; reruns of GLEE..

And now I’m having laryngitis. Thank you.


- it means “end” in glee episodes. You know the sound they make… after the show …*pa* .. the sound with the B sharp note ..you know..*pa!*

forget it… -_-“


Saturday, October 16, 2010

get well soon


the doc's comin'...lol..
*cough cough.. ;(*